Ninety percent how you respond to it."

"You may not be responsible for getting knocked down. But you're certainly responsible for getting back up." -Wally Amos Seth Gehle was not responsible for his dad being in prison after trying to kill his mom, his mom being a drug addict and having addicts come and go as they pleased in and out of Seths house and bedroom. Seth found comfort in a adult friend who provided attention, food, shelter and safety. And then this adult "friend" ended up sexually molesting Seth over 300 times as well as raping him. Seth was not responsible for many things in his life, but it is his responsibility to get back up, and I'm not sure how he does it, but he does. Some parts of this episode are gross and will make you sick to your stomach but Seth deserves a place where he can talk about his trauma and all the details that come with it. Imagine being raped as a young boy, and no one wants to hear you talk about it. Not even the good guys want to hear you talk about it. Well, that's dumb. I am glad you felt comfortable sharing your story Seth. Love you man.

In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason talks with Sammy and Andrew Hardman.  On February 10, 2022 Sammy and Andrew lost their son Drayke Andrew Hardman to suicide. They talk about Drayke's love for basketball, his kind heart, the day of and the battle in the hospital while Drayke was in a coma, the Hardman's journey with grief, and what we can do to help kids who are being bullied.

In this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast, we sit down with Amanda Hurst.  Amanda lost her husband, Clever Hurst, to suicide on June 5th, 2020.  Mason and Ryan talk with Amanda about the persistent taboo surrounding suicide and the need to recognize signs of depression in those we care about.  They discuss the experience Amanda had being married to Cleve for 12 years, the nuances between grief and depression, and the crucial importance of reaching out for help if you're experiencing suicidal ideation.

On this episode of the 10 Ninety Podcast we talk to Tim and Becky Graff for the second time.  To hear the full story about the day they lost their daughters you can go back and listen to episode 20.  On May 11, 2020 Tim and Becky lost their two daughters Ellie and Kinsley to a flash flood while hiking through Little WIldhorse Canyon.  During this episode we talk about what Tim and Becky are doing 4 years later and what they do to manage their grief.

On this episode of The 10 Ninety Podcast Mason and Ryan talk to Mitch Whetman.  If you haven't heard Mitch's story go back and listen to episode 15 where we first talk about Mitch's sister Whitney.  Whitney passed away from suicide on July 16, 2010.  Mitch said in the first episode we recorded with him that when you lose a loved one, "they die in pieces."  Since our last interview Mitch got married and had his first baby, and son, Nashton Bret Whetman.  On this episode we talk about the difficulty of accepting the good things happening in your life when your loved ones aren't there to witness it.  We talk about what we do to tap into the idea of We>Me and we talk about Mitch's spiritual journey while walking with grief.

Mason and Ryan go a bit off the rails on this one.  Listen at your own risk.